Week 2 - ending 1/14: Gratitude and Thoughtfulness

This was a heavy week.

The energy was dense and emotional. Instead of diving into the emotion while still in the storm, I decided to pull cards. I don't pull cards often, don't read cards and the two decks I have is because I took them from a friend.

Today I used the, "Psychic Tarot for the Heart Oracle Deck," by John Holland. The two cards that appeared were, "Joy and Stability," followed by, "Choose your Battles." I don't know what they mean and did not read the description in the book. I simply went by what I felt.

Joy and Stability

Upon seeing this card I felt gratitude. I had a sense that I needed to be grateful for what I was, or wasn't, going through. Additionally, I needed to adjust my thinking about being grateful for what I have in this life, including friends who confide in me and look to me for guidance. I also needed to have gratitude for the life experiences that have allowed me to provide guidance, however painful they may have been. The pain has subsided and now the lessons can be passed on to help others.

Choose Your Battles

This card immediately came to me as a warning. While not going through any major life changes myself, I occasionally get the urge to dig up the past and confront those who have hurt me. I have been working on growing, and when those feelings emerge, I go into a quick meditation and recenter myself. It has been working well. Even with that, I think this card was a reminder that when I feel pulled into an existing war, or feel like starting one, I really need to take heed and rein in my emotions. The older I get, the more I realize, leaving some things unsaid can be the best choice. Even though I still love someone, want to continue learning more about them, and build with them, it is not only my decision.

I am hoping that if the year starts off heavy it will only get lighter as we progress through it. In the meantime, gratitude and thoughtfulness is what I will practice.